Okay that, that my friends, going to be in my tidied closet on thursday. Super nice, Don't you think? yeah. anyway. So Ive already spent $40 of my feb's allowance. which means, I only have $260 left. & I want to buy two cute dresses, which in total sums up to $54. Can i ?Guess I could. I mean, I've been a good girl !! Haha , like yea right. Okay, freak cares, Let's just order it !

I like my new tidy & neat life. Trust me, it's super relaxing. haha.

Okay. I want to thanks those who have inspired me to become neater, like much much neater. I spent 5 bloody hours just to clean up my room . & trust me, it's freaking neat now, well, at least, I did my best, know. so I want to thanks, of course, da jie for always keeping her room tidy which really makes me jealous & then dionne, serene, bernice and all the girls to actually inspired me. thanks thanks. & now, I wonder when will I tidy up my house.well well. I'm whacked & hungry. Okaye, Tight diet from tomorrow onwards !

I never like to stay at home alone. Hailey & Dionne are watching hoobastank.. uuuu. I wonder why eminem never drops by. blah. sucks.

I have never realised how important my esprit watch is. I was just like, " shoot, could not find it, nevermind, grab one ". freak. & it felt entirely wrong in school. Like I have to look at people's watches just to see whther mine is correct. & I took the wrong bus because my watch is so not convincing and it's already the 2nd bus I saw. not forgetting it's so pissing to look at the crack on the glass. damn. where the hell is my esprit watch. aghhh. Today was alright, I guess. ...

After all those ceaseless assignments
After all those pissin-off attitude from asshole
After all those shoutings in class
After all those efforts of being a good daughter
After all those tryina hard to attend school every day
I need a break.
Besides I could just eat you up right now if you talk to me.


It's been 3 months already now.

School was alright. I wonder why I have to get up in the morning with the thought " should I skip today ? " comes into my mind every single day. I mean. like, it's every single morning for crying out loud. Alright. 'thever. anyway, so yea, what's up yoll ? I'm doing really really really good. Can I mention who always, always, always make my day ? my girls, of course. always. Wonder why I was so desperate to have one to hold when I have these people around. Have I never thought of the consequences I gotta bear ? you couldn't have two at once, if you do, well, consider yourself lucky mate. It's just either, him or 'em. no both. that's always how it must go, no highway. Alright, let's just stay single heh. I want 8 mile dvd !! I'm so gonna buy it after I have paid my $60 newspaper, two-tuitions' fees. Yeah. I'm so gonna start on my online selling livejournal, now, that I know about ljcut.

You make me throw up in my mouth, asshole. & guess what. I'm behaving just like him. and there comes another lupita. so this is how it feels huh. damn. I'm bad. I'm so gonna be called bitch just like how I call him asshole. Okay. end this soon, shall I.

TOMORROW PE !! 3 ROUNDS !!!

what was I gonna type just now eh? OH YEAH !!!

Eminem was on TV !!!!!!!!! 8 mile. freaken it. He is just so Hot, can ? can or not? can right. damn luh, damn. uuuuuuuuuu. Im so gonna buy 8mile dvd !! a must must.

okay. this is a fucking disclosure for fucking sure. He is an asshole & that is for fucking sure. He doesn't reply smses & He sucks. alright. disclosure. disclosure. disclosure.

Ive typed that Im over him, but I still view that stick-y big-eared girl's 50-many photos for the umpteenth time today, not counting yesterday & the day before. I mean. I can't just face the fact that .. . I mean. .. I've got fats okay, I look more alive than she does. Like errrr. she? me? I mean. C'mon. I could do what she could do so much better laaaaaaahh ass. the hell lah, the hell.

uuu. let's hope Hailey could come tomorrow. so Let's see.
On saturday. I cleaned the house, though my bro nagged that it's not clean. its clean okay. yeaaah. thats pretty much what I did out of my list. On sunday, I did go to church, tuition & Hailey's house, so that is like 3 out of 4 !! hehe. Get well soon Hailey. I have yet to pay 2 tuition fees, & 2 sprees.

Iverson is sooooooo great. I mean. How could I ever live for this long without knowing such 32-year-old man exists ? He's like one of the shortest fella in basketball but he's fucken good !! Like , really really good. no one could mark him lah. Okay, maybe I will become nuggets fan, I mean, blake isn't that bad either , know. but again, maybe I will just become iverson's, though he aint got no dope-eyed eyes. Anyone knows what Im talking about? I want to talk about hiiiiiimmmm. asshole is sick. ooops. could I call him that? I mean. he's not that bad. but at times, he is asshole bad. whatever lah. not like he's gonna read my blog.

See you guys tomorrow if I ever come, which I bet I will, but again it's up to my mood but right now, my mood is not gonna be the same as in the morning, & this mood feels sleepy.

things to do on saturday :
1. clean the house ( swwep, mop )
2. tidy up my room
3. jog
4. transfer money to tutor
5. revise
6. transfer money for the watch




things to do on sunday :
1. tuition
2. church
3. Hailey's house
4. pay tuition




okay. I'm cool with my life now.

alright. FIRST DAY OF NEW CHAP !! fun fun. haha. I bumped to babo & I didnt get high. I could be out & about with asshole & dionne, but I did not. told ya, Ive already knocked some sense into my damned head. uu. PE aint that bad after all, know. I mean. the running part, it was alright just now. yeaaah, guess what. I barely walked !! Damn, I'm good, say Im good. haha. but stupid thing that I was a real dork at dodgeball , oh well, It's the ball's fault !! * pointing real hard *, it's so light that I couldn't even catch it, it slipped !! haha. the hell. I saw people catching it wonderfully. oh well. POA was alright too. at least, I know what shes saying =). good thing I sit with ivy & serene eh .love love. Hailey waited for me !! awww. aint she just so nice or what . haha. love ya. Been going for 20-min detention every day. uuuuu. my english class is so goddamned boring. I want one like Hailey's !! You know, discussion, speaking out our minds matter-a-factly. No one talks in my class & no one is doing work. how fun is that. Good thing, diana & serene sit in front a me. ah yea. I feel like piercing my lips !! yea yeah. could I? or or or, maybe just my ear but the bone part ? yeaaaaaa. I want. My parents would be in horror though if I pierced my lips. but I have nothing better to do !! haha. oh well. the hell. People say I look tired when Im not, but look not when I am. like errr. oh well. gonna go back to my books. tata !!

Don't call me pita if I still don't get the hang of new chap of POA. It's so good to have such nice seatmates in classes. =). & so , I went to school with only an hour or so sleep. yea course, I was freaked out. but oh well. I have to go no matter what aint I. call me good. alright. I can't afford anymore slackings. pabo, go die. asshole, go die, too. & I swear, to just dwell in my studies is my only intention. Not gonna be distracted, not gonna be nothing. alright. Imma go & study now, since Ive already bathed & I would not want to sleep. oh. Do mark my words people. It's not fun when you have to think of such useless people, of such ceaseless flirting which will lead to nowhere, when you have much bigger thing coming. alrighty !

I don't know what I'm doing in front of computer when I'm supposed to be studying for my emaths. My tummy hurts. freaking it. School has been good, as always. oh, I know what could boost up my energy !! LAUGHTERS !!=). oh well. but at times, I just get down to a point where I couldnt breathe properly & I wish I will just faint. how scary is that ? uuuuuuu. Okya I will have a long night since I woke up around 8 just now. I'm always so tired after school.I wonder why. Detention again tomorrow. booo-hooo. I miss going home with Hailey & all & all. oh well. tuition tomorrow. I hooooope, I could do well in my maths exams. The asshole became nice when boxers were given, but came back to his-old-self not long after that. boooo. bootlickers !! haha. okay wth, I'm not making any sense. babo babo babo babo. smiiiiilllleeee laah.




& it's so awkward. Me not knowing what to say, you're just a few cms away, but it seems it would take a whole world to cross just to tap your shoulder. This is so not right. What to do eh ? damnn.

uh. I know what to have when Im over at chomp2 already !! stingray. the cockles thingy (lala? rara? ) , satay, rojak, hokkien mee, kangkong. oh freaking it. nice one. =)



I love my classmates for being so there
& to my closest girlfriends
& my phy teacher
& each & every one of you who cares

Now, you wanna talk about ' being good ', huh. you piss me off each time you call me. EACH time, damn it. It just amazed me how little we know about each other. Like so little that I was tripping when I want to tell 'em about when you guys were young. Like so little that you guys, heh, you guys think that I'm a bad girl. For crying out loud , damn it. You don't even know who am I, no more. you never know & never will. You brought me over to some mountain just to get things straight. Don't you feel embarassed ? freaking it, know. What do you want from me? I don't ask much, I don't complain much. I just take whatever shits you give me. & so much for that huh. I'm just so sick of all these, know. You think I'm the bad guy , when all I've been doing is wetting my pillow each time you call.


You want to know what is home? I 'd tell you. School. Hailey & dionne. Vivocity. those make me feel at home, make me want to go ' home' . You guys never been a home.
& I hate that fact. so much .. .

know why sucker? because, when you're acting like all that & turned me down, there's someone out there who wants me. Don't be mad. youre so passe, know that.

schools fun !! yeaaaaaah. life's good !!
Haileys bday coming yoll !! =))

because you suckers suck
what were the questions again ?
oh yea
why this world is so small
why we, humans, often cant sleep at night
why I get frustrated when my phone doesnt beep
why girls always whine at their beloved girlfriends
why there are break-up songs
why I don't get to go overseas for learning journey
why britney's daughter ain't got no dad
why I threw out all my donuts
why I gave dirty looks to bitches
and for all the unanswered whys
the answer to that is
because you , motherfuckers, suck, big time.

That fucken punkd. Fancy thinking about itself as great one, cut me some slack dawg. None likes you. You & your-fucking-stupid-self should just go to hell. I really think you do suck , know. Like really really suck . I just want to swear & swear and swear ceaselessly about you, know. I want to bitch about you. I want you to rot in hell. Fucking shit of a biatch. I hate you so ungodly much now, don't ask me why, it just happened. Ive got the knack in bitching about people, you know that. Why oh why damn it. oh well, thats goodbye . but I will still behate, though.



Detention was aight. School was, too.

It's 2nd day of school. & I'm skipping school already. Trust me . It's for my own good.

oh I know. The hardest parts are waking up in the morning & putting myself to rest. It is ungodly hard


& I feel, rain is a better friend

Sentosa was aight. bangalas with stinky triangles. sun & the heat. & I'm all burnt out now.


{ 2006 }

1. get into sec3EC & found lots of wonderful people
2. spent valentine day with hates while eatin pizza because my hair is freakin short
3. oh that's it, I cut my hair short
4. got teacher callen me bimbo & but In the end, I turned out to be the man
5. went for suntannen
6. erm. say, 9 months attached, 3 months single
7. lost touch with outsida-school friends
8. dressed up like an emo kid
9. spent 2 months on some useless kiddo
10. learned how to swim
11. new year was super fun
12. learned how to cook a bit
13. pierced my nose
14. fell in love with basketball games
15. got thousand tears cried
16. became vintage
17. went for drummin & driving class which did lead me to an id
18. had a loud combined birthday party
19. bought Tono but He died =(
20. introduced to online shoppen
21. getting cleverer in running away



that's pretty much that. bye those. Hello these.

HAPPY NEW YEAR YOLL !!!!

can you like believe. few hours ago it was 2006 that I still write on papers, oh well. first few hours of 2007 of mine was well-spent. How could it not? It's Hailey & her abro. heh. we are supposed to wake up at 7, but seems I'm the only one who aint got no life & get my butt to shower early in the morning. but oh well. we are heading to sentosa later on, when they are already up.


& it was whacked, trust me. I had fun like big time. I mean, c'mon. I sould give myself some break, know. Instead of asken everyone to cut me some slack. Aight ! No more of these aye. He doesn't want to be bothered by me anyway.He doesn't even sms me if I don't, the hell. who cares. What, you think I care ? You think think think then think again lah. heh . my bebe got stained but I had real fun yesterday.


Now, let's wait for this house to wake up.

Moood : fulla butterflies


Aight. It's gonna start from here. from today. Every gestures, words, laughters & practically anything & everything would affect the whole thing. argh. I don't know what to wear though I have tons of clothes. I don't know what to say though I always talk about anything & everything with anyone & everyone. I don't know what to do. what if, what if. I can't get the words right due to my stupid ears & I'd just make a fool of myself. what if, after all, there is no goddamned connection. HOWWWWWWWWW ? ugh. somebody help. Okay !! I've been doing this since forever. I do know how. Do I? My mind is blankkkkkk. It's been a long long time since Ive been through this. seriously. oh well. I can !! yeah. GO PITA !!


Do this for Em, for your pride, for your name, for all the money you've spent, for all the pretty clothes, do this for yourself !!